Another rainy day.

I feel a bit like Eeyore - grumbling and complaining and not liking the weather one bit. I just was out in the sunshine yesterday but today I wonder if I will ever see the sun again. Grief is like that. It sucks energy out of me. I have been tired, unmotivated, and looking for ways to escape. Last night I watched my last make-up class for Benet Hill. It was on grief. Wonder why I put that off so long?? I realized what was going on in me. I saw grief upon grief - my dad's death in March, going home and leaving again in May, and now this journey with my mom. On top of that, my Aunt Liz is declining too. I guess I thought I had broad enough shoulders to carry all of this. Today I know I don't. Time for tears, time to be with the sadness and stop running from it, time to begin healing. The rain will stop, the sun will come out and there will be new growth. Praise the God of all comfort!